Wednesday, October 31, 2012
The recent case of my housemate hitting someone single-handedly should be brought up perhaps. She's being diagnosed as Bi**lar Disorder, where a person experience two kinds of extreme emotions: Mania and Depression. She goes through this roller coaster emotions and is unable to achieve happiness. Mainly due to extreme feelings that had occured to her in the past.
Let's see her history (I need to bring up or else I'll blow):
- unable to reflect
- blames other people for not pitying her
- feels loveless
- was being sexually assaulted
- was being called a freak by people whom she trusted
- family abandoned her when she was a child
- undergoing a huge amount of stress in work and social life
- had thought of suicides (multiple reasons)
- unable to feel happy (because of her sickness)
- unable to sleep well (amnesia and bad dreams)
- really bad tempered
- emotionally sensitive
- can't take critism
And the list goes on.
The second case I encountered is another colleague whom (I think is milder):
- has oppressed behavior (which I think she doesn't know)
- regards herself as know-it-all
- claimed her husband is involved in adultery and insisted
- persistent in proving herself right
- mostly caused by over-self-righteous and doubts
The third case is a Uni mate of mine, whom I think has/is:
- alchoholicsm
- gay and undergoing stress
- suspected to be purging (bullemia)
- occurring thoughts of suicide
- self-righteous
In the mundane and peaceful life I led, hopefully those in hurricanes can find their feet on the ground. On the other hand, I realize people without a back-up plan, or self-sustaining-believe-in-myself mechanism will crumble. That's why I write blogs to often iron my surface flat again. I'm not afraid.
Monday, October 29, 2012
Getting my free complimentary drink from Starbucks. Last day of October. Seldom feel emotionally sensitive nowadays. It's just strictly abiding to life schedule. Less day dreaming too. Less maybes. More mundane.
Switched gym, from celeb to chi, cheaper by 20 per month, and no registration fees, free bag, and no contract. How do I quit without getting charged? Lol will not publisize it here.
Seeing all those young and vibrant ladies make me squirm. I thought, why haven't I been there? Pretty little thing with big eyes and small pouty lips? Instead it was the other way around. Lol waiting for my hair to prosper.
What do I want? Money, career and love life. All in balance. Not in their full potential just yet. Will it be? I'm scared of changes. Really. Like, moving out, getting engaged, possessing a post degree and a huge lump sum of money in the bank acount. It's like, if I don't catch it now, I'lll drift further and further away from my desirables. It's late for me to turn back. Or start anew. But who's to judge that?
Moods on a triple high point today. Colleague returned my money. And I refrained from bitching. That's a good deed.
Pms mode was on, but self-regulated.
kids shouted I love you and thanked me for all I'd given. And I stalked them on fb. Lol
housemate got diagnosed as bipolar disorder, and she's taken meds. Now she looks wayyyy calmer.
sis having a second baby, invited me for birth party, but I declined, which was a bit bad, but in all great. LOVELY. :)
Sunday, October 14, 2012
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
Colleague cooked what's supposedly to be sarawak laksa and was portioned into 4. It was sweet instead of sour spicy. Lol better than nothing. I'm cooking chickuteh tomorrow. :) During class friends asked me why am I early. Well, because I have no meetings up in my ass. But apparently other unimates who are teachers have such freakingly easy access to be able to leave school during school hours. But i? Sorry won't think of that because I seriously have this shitty impression of my gb. (she sucks)
Monday, October 8, 2012
It's October again. This time in my life I usually pack things for next year and so I did. I wrapped up office belongings into 3 boxes. Maybe I'd stay, but I always feel attached to my things if I rearrange them again the following year. Grandma fell. She went through an opt to reconnect her bones together and now is in recovery. Waitago, 90 yo plus grandma. God speed. A girl msged me to rent the empty room. My colleague butt in saying another girl from the opposite block.is interested in moving in. Why don't they say it earlier, my gosh. Wasted 2 months of rental. Ishhhh. And so I became doc Sam's supervisee. She's great, arranges meetings for discussion routines. Moods really in a jumbled up chaos nowadays.
