Dear Diary

I'm exhausted. The library is up and running but why did everyone seems displeased with my dedication? I agree that sometimes I'm a deely dally, but thi.gs work out don't they? Why can't they just accept my hardwork and deal with it? So frustrated to know the truth. What is wrong with my work??

The car burning under the klang bridge sparked my memory on how the brown uniforms conquered the squares of Germany by fear mongering and brain washing the people in believing the existence of race supremacy. But that was then, this is now. The social media has exposed so many ugly unspoken truths. Are the stakes still high? I'm wondering if racial harmony still exist in this place I live in, or is it just a thing in the past.

I squarely believe that all religion preach peace and truth but now I can only see hatred and revenge over ancient matters. I know I have no say what so ever on the matters between both sides, but there will be no end to this. Seriously. If both powers agree on living peacely in diversity, there wont ever be this much death and torture. What is the reason behind this fight? Greed and ignorance. Blind and stupid if you ask me. But they will never learn. Just because their book of theory teaches them to hate and kill without mercy. I am starting to feel that there is no turning back for this ignorance other than if God comes down to kill us off with one huge flood over the land. I mean, fighting in the name of Him? Whats the point? Whats the benefit? I dont understand.

I hate to say this but once the shit hits the fan, they still wont know that its their own doing. Its their own fault that leads to this situation.

Loving my job as an art teacher.

Learning digital drawing, designing and ms access. Planning on having my own home based tee shirt printing, phone case printing and courseware/children books designing company in 2 months.

Also overwhelmed by the loss of our planes. I cried almost everyday to work just because there is no where to vent. I believe many felt the same. 'why mas?' 'why us again?' The feeling I couldn't shake off. Apparently victims are from our side of acquaintances... a few of my long distance friends and yorks colleagues were in the flight. Feeling upset to the max.ps We were on the same flight coming back from Amsterdam. We cannot imagine how it is to be the people on the flight. In the moment of despair, one can only hope for a twist of faith for malaysia.

Time flies! Im so excited for things to come especially after the super uber adventure since april...

Im planning to get my t shirt and phone casing design starting... since its my passion to customize art and items, I hope I can make my way to selling through social media.

We'll see how it goes.

Weird time to wake up. The clock shows 2.22am. Following an exciting day at KLGCC helping out Jie's second kid's 1st birthday bash, I knocked out at 8.00pm.

It's at these wee hours my mind obsessed about my current obsession. Two years ago it was worrying about armageddon, and I stumbled upon Edgar Cayce's prediction. Then the scare / faze passed. Funny how now I think so little of it. Next, it was earning extra income online. I search high and low and understood the cost and time that I need to commit into the idea. Luckily, my attention span seems to last only for a while.

For a while now, I've been thinking on serving the community. These are some few ideas that came to me under the low light beams my side table lamp.

1. Solar powered trams.
I imagined solar powered trams mapping out all places in flat plains. The wireless trams will charge after going pass platforms and tram stops. Power will come from solar stations in 1km parameter that connects to the tram platforms. Pioneering the project will cost millions. But it'll definitely curb the daily increasing density of the traffic. Thinking far ahead, this idea is actually a change that is good for our future generation. Less emosions, quieter, cheaper, more effective in dealing with congestions. Inspired by Amsterdam.

2. Solar powered short distance buggies
Next, solar powered short distance buggies will be cheap services that caters community needs for traveling. Having said this, there will be in need of electric charging car parks or kiosk beside the car park that allows people to rent the buggy and travel to their destination. Since the solar energy is free, the kiosk will cost lower than fuel. The short distance buggies will have exchange stations or drivers to hire if they need to travel independently. Think it as a taxi / car rental service with exchange stations mapped all over the city / semi urban areas. Inspired by KLGCC.

4. Solar powered Community / Service Centers
I see dreadful abandoned buildings all over the place I live in. And how I wish they can be converted into community centered buildings that help provide basic needs. For one, Green Houses. The buildings can be made in Green Houses for community to plant their crops and grow vegetables. People will have the chance to farm and exchange their crops in the hall. The buildings can also become Science centers, art gallery, book clubs, professional exchanging workshops, barter system exchange hall and non profit community service based centers. It's a great idea but required policy makers and contractors to assign ONE building to each community for free. Think of it like a mall only smaller, without the shopping and capitalism. Inspired by my lovely school. The most giving school that I've ever encountered.

5. Automated Recycle centers
Think of how badass it will be when all the more than 50 percent of garbage goes into this huge factory that automates the recycling process. Powered by solar as well, the main uses of the recycling center focuses on differentiating refuse, and remaking second hand raw materials, selling them to manufacturers. No more cutting down trees and making more plastics. Light weighted, longer lasting bricks that are made of discarded tires, clothes made of plastic bottle scraps, roof tops made of solar panels.

I'm thinking of coming up with a simple town planning idea and proposal for the council to consider. Whether or not it works depend on the community.
  

I'm having the worse holiday blues ever in my life. The weather had never bothered me so much. I missed how cool and dry it was in Paris, and fresh it was the air was in Amsterdam. Once I got back having to face reality and all the emotional baggage that comes with it, I couldn't help but despise myself for having these ungrateeful thoughts. The biggest bugger that bothered me was how our country and country men living in the backwarding society. The corruption, the comotion on bullshit religion diversity, the mentality, the life of elite and the poor... All these unsettling thoughts and feelings came pouring over me in my sleepless nights. Jetlaging. Things undone. Schedules. Expectations to meet.

Agh... I hate everything right now.

*rant on

Photos are here!!





So, the other day I bought groupon 4 poster photos A3 size for 5 bucks each, and also have gotten IKEA frame A5 for 29.90. There are some good catches in my opinion.

13 days to go. I'm so glad it'll be reaching soon.

I missed my best friend's ROM. I was going to face palm myself, but then they replied me with great empathy, giving me a reason to feel even worse for as a person. But anyway, lesson learnt. My apologies were accepted and replied with some photos on the event.



Blessings to both.

On that day, I was at Soo Jin tending to the dance group. I felt rather inadequate in make up and hair, since lately I've lost my confidence in doing things. However, things went well. Our school got selected in the running for final battle on next saturday.

Finally, today I paid a visit to Ally's salon and met with an aquaintance who has been to the same secondary school as mine and friends with the kapar folks. She's a chemist, part time phd under a scholarship, part time beautician, and part time owner of three shops. I thought, where in the world did she come from? How did I not get there? It was then I realized I've been living in my shell for so long that the comfort zone has deafened me. It must be abundance out there, and the key to unlock it is to outdo myself. She is certainly outdoing herself. #salute.

Omg I'm getting old. Although that could be a wonderful thing. My temper has subsided, my rationality soared, my mind speaks soft words instead of thunderous murmurs, my days steadier... Hopefully this is not just because a change of surroundings... No but seriously, work culture here is thoughtful, loving, precise and interlinked.... Comparing to my previous school where everything seems to be a one man show. And the travelling takes my age away by dozens. Now that I'm a language teacher, and a library teacher, things have been sorted out for me. Whatsapp is the coolest and fastest memo, food seems abundance in the school, my waist line is expanding. Students are clearly much more easier to grasp, teaching much easier with the iq board. Lol now that everything is in my sweetest spot, I could only hope that all these work culture brought to my future school. Oh future school, what might thou be? If its a grade a school, I wouldn't be so relaxed.

Alas, who will know of what the future brings?

Wedding in 19 days. Gosh, I'm so anxious of what has not been done. Food, wedding invites, hotel bookings, dress, make up, hair, jimui, agenda, wedding gifts, photos.... It's all something that a bride and groom could not afford to mislook. Thank goodness, at these dire times, my good old fiance has a lot of things under his control. Though throwing a tantrum seems inadequate in these times, but that seems to be what I have been doing more then anything else. So apparently, My future husband think of me as a dare devil wolf. Which I couldn't blame him, cause I'm a real pain in the ass sometimes too. No matter what brings, I need to amp up the spirit to face it. Oh how I hope things passed and life is normal and unnerving anymore.