Dear Diary

Great time out. Did some accounts and realized my financial status not that bad after all. Just changing priorities.

Anyway, after class, we went for a game of badminton at school. 4 girls. When reached, guys dominated court, so we played outside. After a while we went in.

Feeling so depressed over money matters. Was uplifted abit knowing i managed to save a bit for next months expenses, was devastated when mom asked for emergency backup cash for her center. This master degree better be worth it. Mom's working additional night classes to earn extra income.

Oh god why.

Printing out flyers of tuition and setting up online store. Why are only the woman in the family goes out and wins the bread in the family? What ever happened to my dear father and failure to launch brother?? Have they no self conscious at all? At all? At all?

Lunch was lei cha with colleagues. The moment i nommed, it mesmerized my taste buds i felt like i cud cry. Lol

Then night presentation wasn't too gud, long-winded slides resulting bad time management. Previous group gets the grace of time though. 3 person 1nhalf hours? Ours is latter, 5 person 1 hour. And i only got 5 minutes to present my part. Quite bad.

Night, tried to wrap up assignment but sleep won over me. Slept at 3am.

It's thursday. Love holidays. A lot of time to blog and day dream. Hehe

Went out to pick up road tax at public bank. Then went to wee sing for stationaries. They've moved to a new place 3 doors next to the old one. Very successful i guess.

Now im at toyota service center lounge, blogging away. Anyways, some remarks on my day dreams. You know, i have those kinds of remarkable things in mind, sometimes forgotten or stashed away.

One of them is stock stalking. Yeah, ive been stalking the stock market for some time now, but too poor to be a part of it.

Another one is this diy concept cafe. There's an obvious trend in diy-ing nowadays, especially youth who intends to be frugal, and productive at the same time.

Investing on that idea, i'm thinking of a great cafe theme:
1) serves coffee and pastries
2) functions as a workshop

Not just any workshop, but a diy workshop. Like, this sweatshop cafe in paris, where they serve customers coffee and pastries, and providing the tools and equipments to make their own crafts.

I thought, why don't this idea work? The diy workshop could cover on:
1) fabric sewing & decorating: pouches, covers, needle work, dolls, bags, clothes etc.
2) woodworks: cabinets, bookshelves, coffee tables, refurbishing furnitures, gardening tools etc.
3) paper crafts: paper remaking tools, coloring canvas, stamps, decoratives, paper flowers
4) diy from junk

The store will provide tools, advises and books, and the patrons will come out with their own items, while enjoying the coffee. There'll also be events and workshops to date. I'm also thinking of intergrating book rental, whereby people could either donate their books or rent it in the cafe with a sum, then it'll be listed in the cafe list. All the rental fees shall go into the renter's account, while adding value to the cafe because of book rental. Aka mini library + coffee pastry + diy workshop. A combination of my dream cafe. Hehe

It begins with the opening of eyelids.

Then, the gratifying truth. Class at 6pm.

So i crawled out of bed, managed to drive to several places. First off, a visit to public bank to pay my insurance and tax. Then, went to upm to pay study fees. Next, to putrajaya to recollect spm cert. Pretty fast, within an hour they've gotten me my cert.

Drove back to upm to have discussion. Attended class till 9pm. Reach home at 10pm. Went to fetch sze mei at weng shin hall.

Ironically I've been putting my house together, in my mind of course. Since it's holidays. :D

So it begins like this, as the master of my house I will first have a:

An upstairs like this. But a few amendments. There must be enough lights, such as balcony lights, or sky lights. Enough space. I would even demolish the rooms upstairs to create this look. Modern wooden flooring would be hefty for my budget, so normal waxed wood will do. Rid the red wall with intimidating message and switch into soothing/pastel colors. Rid the platform, but I would want a underfloor leg-space. Love the windows. That's why it has to be upstairs, so that when you open the balcony doors, it's a green sanctuary outside.


This would be the extension of the above interior. The sleeping corner would be blinded in some manner. Working space right after the sleeping space. All this, in one space. Also, I would do some color blending.













So, once you open the sliding doors of the balcony, it'll be something like this. But a few amendments. Chairs turned into rattan sofas with cushion. Dangling plants and greens. Pebbled floors. Bamboo blinds.

















Then there's downstairs. When the night comes, there'll be dangling ceiling lights, although wall are up but the arrangement would be more or less like this.









Kitchen would be modulated into this. High chairs and talking space. Creates a distance and a closeness between hostess and guest, or mother and child.











Then there'll be two bedrooms downstairs. For two or three children. Or guests.














Where most importantly, there's a study/reading corner to rest the legs, drink coffee/wine and talk all day/all night. The ultimate corner. You know what they say, your home is your temple.










So there you go. My dream home. Where all the dreams are put together.

Anyways, I'd had a realization. Maybe after masters, I'd be interested in upgrading my career. A lecturer. After all, that IS my sole dream since young. Although my age is nearing 30, and I'm loving it.

That's it. I'm putting my foot down. I'm tired of people scorning at my freakish melancoly thoughts. If i have money and time, i will build this for survival purpose. There, i said it, i don't want others to realize that it's their idea in a few years time.

Pic1: Using metal scraps to build a structure for 'floatives', such as tyres and plastic bottles, like a raft.

Pic2: install functional capsule for storage, made of solid wood and metal structure. Shaped in versatile aerodynamic shape, shaded from rain and sun. There's also solar panels on hind deck for the propellers and electronic device, sail for direction and speed, rain water catchment for purified drinking water supplies. The bottom compartment consist of decomposters for organic dumps.

Pic3: last but not least is the interior. Front desk for navigation and a solar generator, rainwater purifier and storage, then at sides are basic survival kits, namely: food supplements, vitamins, medicines, seeds, tools, weaponry, clothes, heater etc. There'll also be knowledge of science in stored in a hardrive. Next two compartments are inflatable boats for survivors or shelter on land. The side panel are rich soil from decomposter, and plants and fruits.

Say naive, the cost of build is estimated around 3k if we use junk, in case we need it one day, like thailand. I hope every household builds one and put infront of their porches. So that everyone can survive a flood. Not tsunami or any violent weather though.

Hoping that time flies. It's going to be holidays soon.... And debts, assignments are waiting for me.

Was reading a book, the alchemist. Simple, descriptive, child spoken. "Everyone knows what their real destiny was, until one day they were being forced to believe in this big fat lie the world has fed them."

My dream was to become a great story teller, on a stage, where my words are wise and rare. Am already doing it now tho.

Anyways, drastic floods everywhere. Hasn't anyone got the urge to build or buy a boat already? You know, when the day arrives, we simply deliver ourselves to the new continent with sufficient food and technology? No? Hah. Guessed so.

Killed most of the test papers today. Good to feel this way.

Went to upm to pay fees, but it was closed at the moment i stepped in. :/ also, finally submitting the form for kpm about masters. Have to go lembaga peperiksaan at putrajaya tomorrow for report of lost spm cert.

Tuition salary came. Anyhow, i need to pay for first college fees, then car services and car insurance. There's a hole that mounts up to 2k. Aim to pay it up by 2 months. Hopefully.

Starting to wonder how is it like to have saved up 5k like friends i know. Depressing.

Better now, only stomach a bit airy thay is. Colleague asking me out for lunch, i have no choice but decline. Haha

Class at upm. Gotta step on the pedal now. Anyway, that day i've introed sze mei to my cousin ah xian, 27 yo, lives in banting, really adorable. Hope things spark. Lol

Woke up early just to get to toilet. I've been in and out of the toilet for more than a month's record now. Poo and pee. Or just nothing. This ordeal is torturing me, yet equivalent to last time's food poisoning. Finished reading 4 books in the weekend. I know, a record there too. There was a moment where I wished to just pass out.

Need a financial plan ASAP. It's really indecent for a girl my age without realistic investment value other than my job. :(

Sze mei came up, picked her up at um after her class. When we drove back it's already 4pm. Hungry, so i wolved down some bread. Went for badminton, maggie lost her phone, kiwi and sue yin getting a new pup, karfai still hasn't bought the sabah ticket for kk. Lol Went for steamboat.

Late at night, gastric wimd strikes. Couldn't let out air, so went to jaafar. After prescription, felt better, but still couldn't sleep all that well. I bestow myself the restraint order of spicy food in the future. Paid peki back some debts. Sighz. When will i start saving money?

Boyfriend being so generous. He upgraded my celcom sim into 3G. Now i can finally online whenever i wish. :)

Had been eating like there's no tomorrow. First har mee at school, then char kuay teow with colleagues, next kfc. Wasn't that alluring though.

Drove to upm for books. Gotten in some good books, logical thinking, psychology and even business and markets. Bought a magazine interior too. :)

Had been dreaming of a coffee shop called solidarity, where people rest their feet and drink coffee and indulge in great music. Maybe thats what i'll do in the retirement days.

Two days away from home and i missed my family. It suddenly occured to me that i'm aging quicker than before. Like the mid afternoon transcending to evening. Seems stretched out, but actually cruelly short lived. And now im here. Scarce savings, clueless about finance, clinging and counting on my day job to provide. Studying a master degree for a better or worse future as a uni lecturer.

Meeting at ppd went well. Me and chai li were the first few, so we got to scoot early.

Went to taming jaya for mamak rojak with lai heon, a bit spicy. And also cendol. Came back letharrgic, slept in a moment after washing up. Woke up bored and anxious. Read a book depicting bengali immigrants to european countries.

Tried to tassel peki out of his good-willed manner. Thats the sort of thing i'd do to compensate my insecurity. Or in piaget's terms, fixate my way into sense of security. Lol

After school, i was waiting at ppd after class for en amin, but alas he didnt turn up. So i arrived for class late, having to face penalty of preparing a 15 question paper for the class. Had a good child and adolencent psychology class, one where we share and present.

Later, we discussed on our project, where we're going to interview gangsterisme in boys school and their internal values. Met with a junior's sister. What a small world.

Anyways, went to have vegetarian at equin park with denise. Phone batt ran out, but found her on the streets waiting for me. Lol.

Finally got to meet with en ridzuan at ppd. Am glad that the installer is finally working.

Went to starbucks to online as well as wrap up the silly slap thing.

School was immensely tiring. Kids lying again. I wish i could detect lying from a shift of a face muscle. Won't that be cool?

Today relaxed a bit. A show caught my eye, the woman in black. Worth a watch?