Dear Diary

I'm exhausted. The library is up and running but why did everyone seems displeased with my dedication? I agree that sometimes I'm a deely dally, but thi.gs work out don't they? Why can't they just accept my hardwork and deal with it? So frustrated to know the truth. What is wrong with my work??

The car burning under the klang bridge sparked my memory on how the brown uniforms conquered the squares of Germany by fear mongering and brain washing the people in believing the existence of race supremacy. But that was then, this is now. The social media has exposed so many ugly unspoken truths. Are the stakes still high? I'm wondering if racial harmony still exist in this place I live in, or is it just a thing in the past.

I squarely believe that all religion preach peace and truth but now I can only see hatred and revenge over ancient matters. I know I have no say what so ever on the matters between both sides, but there will be no end to this. Seriously. If both powers agree on living peacely in diversity, there wont ever be this much death and torture. What is the reason behind this fight? Greed and ignorance. Blind and stupid if you ask me. But they will never learn. Just because their book of theory teaches them to hate and kill without mercy. I am starting to feel that there is no turning back for this ignorance other than if God comes down to kill us off with one huge flood over the land. I mean, fighting in the name of Him? Whats the point? Whats the benefit? I dont understand.

I hate to say this but once the shit hits the fan, they still wont know that its their own doing. Its their own fault that leads to this situation.

Loving my job as an art teacher.

Learning digital drawing, designing and ms access. Planning on having my own home based tee shirt printing, phone case printing and courseware/children books designing company in 2 months.

Also overwhelmed by the loss of our planes. I cried almost everyday to work just because there is no where to vent. I believe many felt the same. 'why mas?' 'why us again?' The feeling I couldn't shake off. Apparently victims are from our side of acquaintances... a few of my long distance friends and yorks colleagues were in the flight. Feeling upset to the max.ps We were on the same flight coming back from Amsterdam. We cannot imagine how it is to be the people on the flight. In the moment of despair, one can only hope for a twist of faith for malaysia.

Time flies! Im so excited for things to come especially after the super uber adventure since april...

Im planning to get my t shirt and phone casing design starting... since its my passion to customize art and items, I hope I can make my way to selling through social media.

We'll see how it goes.