Dear Diary

Obsessed

Nowadays, I'm pretty obsessed with multiple thoughts that haunt me throughout long sleepless nights. What else than the end of days? I feel so grim and aimless, and has put all my future plans aside. The Ambank savings plan that is going to fruit by 2030 has to be put to a halt. I've also extended my Masters and is waiting for the shadowy times to pass, and outstation trips to a full stop because...... I just don't have the mood.

Another reason is because I find my life...... friendless. It is really devastating when you find yourself laughing, walking the malls, chatting, eating at a new place, sharing a good/bad news, going to a concert, singing Karaoke, watching a movie alone.

Speaking of concert, Maroon 5 is coming to town. That too, I'm going alone. It's just a matter of time that I will slip out of the tide and get stuck somewhere in the era (if we are going to).

I'm 25 this year. I'm stuck with a job and has the post-syndrome to depression. I'm mostly unhappy all the time. I'm not begging for mercy or craving for attention, I just feel life has not been my cup of tea lately.

Grim, friendless, end of days just around the corner, I might as well......quit this life. Oh wait, I can't.

CNY

For the past few CNYs I was taking everything for granted. Abundance of food, friends and family, and a house to live in. This year is a bit different, while the peninsular suffers from drastic flash floods and unpredictable storms, I now feel blessed for what I have.

The 2012 dooms*day hoax/truth is building up a mass hysteria at a rapid rate. Since the north pole ice caps are melting, climate changing is occurring in every corner of our earth. Predictions has it, once the icecaps melts away the earth will loose its balance and develop a cataclysmic polar shif*t . All I could think of is "Earth's gotta do, what an Earth's gotta do." I could only chant for 2013 CNY to come with peace or in one piece.

I have a new resolution, which is if we made it through, I will spend my life devoting in my green home, where recyclable energy used at its maximum capacity, and a self-sustainable food garden. Maybe I would also throw in a few designs where houses could be afloat so that floods will not affect much on daily life.

Anyway enough of my hysteria. CNY this year has been special. Both my good friends have gone to Sg to continue with work, now left only Da*n and me. Last night my brother's friend drop by so we had a good time filling up jugs of Hoe*garden at Modesto and chatting till late night.

The sketch at Kaika*n yesterday is really a fine laughable show. Sis and BIL came back with Baby Ru*i. OMG what a dear little spongy he is. :)