Saturday, June 9, 2012
Finally! Done with statistics, and I have a feeling that marks will increase from previous frantic struggles to stay along the borderline. Now down with 1 more finals assignment, and 1 final exam on Tuesday. Hope things go well~ Monday's coming soon. Thanks to University work, I never get the chance to feel nostalgic at all on school holidays the time around. Sze Mei went back after two days staying over. We went Overtime last night just to get the stress loads off our shoulders. :D
Anyways, an incident happened today. I called hubby on Sze Mei's phone (not to test him-la) because my phone was out of battery, so once he picked up he said:" yes, leng lui, wassup?" in a bubbly way. LOL WHO AM I KIDDING? Thinking that I am the only one in his mind. I really doubted whatever a guy has to offer other than comfort, are occasional splurge and the other reason (you know what I mean).
It was a cold splash of water at first and then I suppressed the surprise mode to go along with the conversation, acting that it had never happened. I may be over-reacting, and act like this is all a get-the-friend-to-get-the-chick gimmick, but I can't help to react this in my usual self-blaming way.... That I'm not attractive enough. So there you go, I'm letting him get into my system again. This time I'm really adamant on bringing myself FURTHER from him to avoid distress. But how long can I run from myself? Good gracious, who says you're not attractive you might ask? Of course I'm gorgeous. I just haven't found the one that looks at me like I'm the most beautiful girl in the world. Maybe yet, maybe never. :(
Anyways, an incident happened today. I called hubby on Sze Mei's phone (not to test him-la) because my phone was out of battery, so once he picked up he said:" yes, leng lui, wassup?" in a bubbly way. LOL WHO AM I KIDDING? Thinking that I am the only one in his mind. I really doubted whatever a guy has to offer other than comfort, are occasional splurge and the other reason (you know what I mean).
It was a cold splash of water at first and then I suppressed the surprise mode to go along with the conversation, acting that it had never happened. I may be over-reacting, and act like this is all a get-the-friend-to-get-the-chick gimmick, but I can't help to react this in my usual self-blaming way.... That I'm not attractive enough. So there you go, I'm letting him get into my system again. This time I'm really adamant on bringing myself FURTHER from him to avoid distress. But how long can I run from myself? Good gracious, who says you're not attractive you might ask? Of course I'm gorgeous. I just haven't found the one that looks at me like I'm the most beautiful girl in the world. Maybe yet, maybe never. :(
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