Dear Diary

22-1-12

2012-01-23T07:52:00.001-08:00

I know i'm an over achiever. Managed to watch the whole season 7 of himym, and season 2 of new sherlock holmes within two days. Went for the afternoon session of kaikan cny ceremony, as usual.

21-1-12

2012-01-23T07:50:00.001-08:00

An auspicious day. Rain cleared the heat before dawn. Woke up listening to the clinking of utensils inbthe kitchen. Had a great family reunion lunch, although jie didn't make it because of rui's fever.

We have abolony soup, hainamese chicken, 'ru' egg, and vinegar pork. Yummy yumm.... Peki was with us.

21-1-12

2012-01-23T07:45:00.001-08:00

It's cny all over again. Cleaned the house, managed to pack all the unwanted but usable clothes into the huge plastic bags, waiting to hand in to a friend. But he didn't show up anyway.

At night, went to pandamaran for lei chi kang, and to feel the noisy environment of cny with peki.

19-1-12

2012-01-20T16:29:00.003-08:00

Went for another meeting at sma near ppd. A few speakers gave some talks, and i managed to finish marking a stack of essays while they're at it. Something interesting though. They gave us a questionnaire.

Later, i went to upm to collect my book vaucer worth rm200, valid till end of march only. Hmm i wonder, what should i spend it on.

Also, met with a young men who used:" hi, u look familiar. Can we be friends?" Pick up line on me. I literally scurried away. Lol.

Had yogurt and apples for dinner.

I got my results as well. Cgpa 3.875. Now why havent i got a 4 flat? Na, no need the stress for the next 3 semesters. :D

18-1-12

2012-01-20T16:29:00.001-08:00

School had a festive competition, called 'chui mei', where kids use straw to blow ink on paper and form a tree. Like they always do, the ink spilled everywhere, practically the whole school, and the kakaks have to clean up after. :/

Our school teacher wore a fortune god costume to greet the kids too, they were screaming of joy.

17-1-12

2012-01-20T16:28:00.001-08:00

Sup meeting at smk saujana impian, unlike the usual place, this school is packed with hormones, i even get wolf whistles.

Had the usual prep, got back school and went to putrajaya with colleague. We waited at kpm, putrajaya for dt wee, but alas mr wong came to help. He promised to do what he can, but nothing us for sure.

It's hard to play empathy, but what i could only offer is a helping hand. They were busy for the night's dinner, every employee has a huge bag of goodies.

When i got back again, i noticed a bag of mangosteen, it was from school kebajikan. I gave the whole bag to the guards of my apartment. Not to put it as bribery, but put it as in recognizing their effort and hardwork.

16-1-12

2012-01-20T16:27:00.003-08:00

Drank milk and nestle as breakfast.

During assembly, i was supposed to present a video of the performance night of the traditional dance, but the video teacher mixed up 44 minutes with 44 seconds. It was screwed like.... I wanna scream, but i told him nvm. :/

Finished marking my books, tend to tuition kids, and was told that it wasn't necessary for me to bring printer in for repair anymore.

Anyway, a colleague just told me her reason for not going to kelantan for her kpli course. It was a flesh tumour, in her womb. She is 27. I better get med check up soon. :(

Came back to have tv dinner to forget the sorrow for a while. Untouched essays. No mood to mark.

14-1-12

2012-01-20T16:27:00.001-08:00

Jolted up half an hour late for mm, rushed to kl central, got there in half an hour. Started collecting money and finally parked my car in sooka central, and hopped on marble's car to sg chilling.

As the porter, they stashed me a 5.5L water, two 1.5L hundred plus, a stove and 4 cans of gas. I carried a 2.5km terrain 1 trail, crossed 5 rivers. Boy, am i proud of myself.

As promised, got to waterfall, took plenty of pics with a lumix dslr (love it like whoaaaa), jumped off a half storey waterfall after chung accompanied me. Was reluctant at first, then succumbed and enjoyed! Although 2 participants was shouting for help after jumping in, because they cant swim.

Had steamboat, great hot food by a cool pool. Had a great outing, bought two charity choc metal boxes for mom and peki.

Dreamt of the sensation of jumping in that night. It was amazing.

12-1-11

2012-01-13T05:54:00.001-08:00

It's thursday! A fleeting heart of heading home burns beneath my ribcage. Lol

Colleague made coffee bites, actually it's biscuits, but i like to call it that way, butterfly shaped, very nice. :)

Our former gpk kurikulum sent a cny card to us, still as funny as he is, enjoying retired days immersed in karaoke! My favorite dad figure colleague...

Drove around cheras area, had banmee as lunch, and finally hit the sack at 5pm. Woke up at 7pm, housemates asked if i had had my dinner. Access card unable to do because the house owner hasn't paid 500 bucks of maintenance fee for the house. Wtf!

10-1-12

2012-01-13T05:53:00.001-08:00

SNot very good in subjective questions, i suppose, in the exams today. But objective should be fine.

Watched i am number four with peki's huge capacity pendrive. Haha, and the show is nice, housemate tempted to watch but she's having an exam soon too. Lol thank goodness Lazy's here to console my depressed soul.

9-1-12

2012-01-13T05:52:00.003-08:00

Planned out some resolutions:
1. More books, less fb. A book a month
2. Spend less on clothes, reuse
3. Take up yoga class, inclusive of gym
4. Go vegan 3 days a week, cook dinner
5. Accomplish masters degrees, possibly with flying colors

Been doing some reconcilation and calculation. Luckily, i'm able to sustain my living with frugal practices. Was looking at my pictures too, wished i was happier with my looks. Age is a factor apparently. :(

Reached school earlier today, and was introduced as guru disiplin d6. Taught afternoon tuition, came back to have a nap. Did revision for tomorrow's exam.

This year, hopefully i can gain experiences by overcoming problems about:
1) school workload- work gradually piling up on me because of various posts.

2) financial stress- uni fees are taking a toll on me( thanks to bro who contributed, and peki who subsidized. )

3) study problems- 8 subjects to bear (thanks to uni mates who are really informative though)

4) social relationships (all this analyzing is excruciating.)

5) volunteer work (holds a post of monthly meet officer and secret project fundraiser in raleigh, although these are my fun times)

Hopefully all goes well. Chant*

8-1-12

2012-01-13T05:52:00.001-08:00

Mission impossible 4 is a killer! Had brunch at subway, and popcorn in cinema. Later, sis dropped by, we had roast duck for lunch and head off to grandma's house.

Little rui rui is growing up fast. :) playing with sand at uncle's house. Haven't study for exam in two days time.

Went to tesco and got the keys duplicated, and bought kfc for dinner. Then i head straight to cheras perdana for an early start sake tomorrow.

Bruised my lips because i tried to pick up my bag which was unintentionally heavier, and my fist snapped backwards when i let it go. Fuck.

7-1-12

2012-01-07T19:11:00.001-08:00

Went to have some tong shui in hong kong dessert at bukit tinggi with peki. I had white fungus + bird egg ice tong shui. Then went for a stroll at tesco. Had dong fun tai chao at the shop outside.

6-1-12

2012-01-07T03:01:00.003-08:00

Went to school on time. Spent half day decor-ing class notice board. *will post pictures :)

At night, went out for dinner with housemates, had duck eggs with char kuey teow. There's a store called mr. Diy, went in for a stroll. Cheap stuff- the old school scissors for rm3.

My friend requested for some curtains. So i suggested using the red cloth i stashed, but needs some handy work.

Friday night, suggested to peki for a movie date at harbor place. But when i reach the 7th floor, the place was flooded and closed, apparently tangki bursted.

Saturday, had some pork blood soup dabao beside 555. It's a relaxing day, tried to do some study.

4-1-12

2012-01-07T03:01:00.001-08:00

No matter how much i bring, i'll never be able to bring 'home' with me. Early-ish, i've managed to load everything (else) into the car. Hugged mom & sensed dad getting old too rapidly. :(

Moved to a new place three floors up, class was two rooms away. So it's fine. Asked the kids to help lift my stuff which was a lot, and spent the whole day tidying up. Colleagues are nice.

Around 3, car got blocked in parking lot by standard 1 parents, what is their issue? Omg they are standing outside the classroom looking at their kids longingly, for the whole 4 periods. See show meh?

Then went to get stationeries at jj, had kenny rogers as breaking fast. Reached new home in 10 minutes, start to sort put stuff, unload luggage and assemble the table lamp + cabinet.

Took me the whole day and night. The lamp is such a difficult thing to handle that i used paper sticks to hold it. But all in all, very satisfied.

3-1-12

2012-01-03T06:43:00.001-08:00

Studied none stop for exams. Exchanged notes with Manfred, and send final draft to ellen and denise as well.

Today went to school late, got ditched into traditional dance group, with the reputation of putting teachers into spot light and asking them to teach on behalf. Fuck... Another burden lo.

Rushed to exam hall. I secretly went through front gate, ran 300 meters to back gate, got the car and left, reaching at 9.59am. Wth, and then exam starts.

Nevertheless, the spot questio ns that dr. Amin gave was all the same. So it was a smoothie.

Then, got back to school, just in time to be in tuition meeting. Damn.

After that, i joined colleagues to have spicy banmee, hot till my stomach is rumbling now lo. Lol

Did a personal notice board using recycled items. Packed my stuff into the car seat. Sighz... Time to go to battle tomorrow.

20-12-11

2012-01-01T06:15:00.001-08:00

Great weekend!

No big damage has been done by sandflies this time as comparing to last time, i did made friends. We slip off to the stream for a dip in the waters. We also bought rambutans to have beside the waterfalls, weird finding people shooting a commercial there.

Later, we had porridge and GREAT coffee beside the mountain roads. The whole journey was really great because the accomplices are a great fun.

When getting back from kl, peki was just on the doorstep of the meet up point, but due to not having the hp by my side and was having a post mortem, we missed each other. I then hitchhiked a klangites car back hime, feeling really regretful.

21-12-11

2012-01-01T05:42:00.001-08:00

Had classes in these two days. It's our finals in a week's time. Monday was my presentation in thinking class, things went well i would say. Gave some magnets from aussie to friends. Dr amin gave 15 spot questions.

Tuesday, I took a survey test from dr wong and got a great paper pad. Then i drove an extra mile to peki's place in nilai and spend a night over. Classmates, manfred and denise dozing off. Lol

Next day i went to school for sbpa contract meeting. New hair cut at jj.

1-1-12

2012-01-01T05:14:00.001-08:00

Happy new year! Had an awesome run with maggie at pekan by meru, called dragon back run, aka jalan beralun-alun. There were 6 paved mountains to cross, with great view though, length 15km. Reached in 2 hours 14 mins.

Lunch was at 3jc, klang parade. York bought vouchers worth $17.80, priced at $8.90 from groupons. Great chilli paste and minced meat. Had ice coffee blended too.

The rest of the day, i slept. Lol, the fc are having a badminton session,and a trip to morib.

31-12-11

2012-01-01T05:02:00.001-08:00

Peki came by late in the evening, and we head towards garden, sunway pyramid for our count down. We had fish barracundi and beef steak, and had a great time chatting with fc club. There was a concert featuring ella from s.h.e., who was in malacca having dinner with the bf at sunway lagoon. The fireworks were great, and can be seen at the verandah.

We were stuck in the jam on the way to the entrance, and every car was honking rhythmically just for fun. We then had supper at shanmugan and met with phing2 from kh band.

24-12-11

2011-12-31T01:03:00.001-08:00

It's christmas eve. Picked up simyee and lai yee from teluk gadung and head to ipoh. After 2 hours drive, met in front of gua tempurung, met with moi fong, another car of weisiang, sufan, sze mei, and another car of jing wenn, her bf, ailing and meiyin.

At night we start to plan about the next day.

Weisiang kissing the plate...in the above pic.

25-12-11

2011-12-31T00:50:00.001-08:00

It's christmas! But most importantly, it's moi fong's big day... All set, we assembled at moifongs rental house, phoi sam joining us thereafter.

Here's the recipe for the heng dais torture:
1. Wasabi on french bread
2. Lime with numbers... For him to arrange fongs ic
3. A plate for bulu kaki
4. Kisses to recognise, else split legs
5. A love board of promises

So the heng tai came, got through our traps with tears and bribery, and finally the groom claimed victory. Then we head to the groom's place for the ceremony, on the way, they were honking for the whole town to hear. Lol

We then went to ipoh parade for a nostalgic tour. Had yong tau fu and starbucks.... Night, dressed up for dinner. Met with our lecturers. Had a great time.

26-12-11

2011-12-31T00:33:00.001-08:00

After a full night sleep, we woke up to realize the room next door was empty. So we packed and started heading to ipoh.

It was an hour drive from tualang, while pik wan drove to her house to pick up her double, pik wen, we then went to ipoh famous foodstall to have brunch.

There were kai xi hor fun, dandan pudding, pohpiah, and oldtown coffee. Nice.

Then drove back to klang in 2 hours.

28-12-11

2011-12-31T00:06:00.001-08:00

First day of meeting at school. I'm so not ready for work, mood was down a bit.

Came in late for 10 mins. Work segregating. I had the worse news flash: got guru disiplin for s6, setiausaha upsr, headcount helper, and s6 class teacher. As if my work still not enough to pressurize me into pie.

Then i drove my housemate, bong to the new house in cheras jaya. Quite big, but empty. Spend the afternoon cleaning and scrubing the floors. I got the smallest room for $140.

The masterbed room got locked, so we walked a 300m to the house owners place for keys. He came on a bike and replaced a new doorknob.

29-12-11

2011-12-30T23:57:00.001-08:00

Writing backwards for the countdown of 2011.

Second day of school meeting... The staff room is stuffed because electricity breakdown. I sat with pei fen's daughter and tried talking to her, cute like anything.

Then i drove to ikea to pick up a bed frame $199, mobile wardrobe $49, and a lack coffee table $30. It took me a while because i needed to:
1. Move trolley to floor p1
2. Ask the man to store it
3. Walk half an hour to e@curve where i parked
4. Drove out to find the street is pretty jammed
5. Park in front of ikea valet parking
6. Claim my trolley and pushed to entrance
7. Unloading it, with a bangla guard's help... Instead of some young malaysians who were smoking beside my car.... So i shook hands with the bangla... Freaking arrogant malaysians.

Met with ayu. Then had dinner in ikea canteen. What happened to cleaning up ikea tables? There were dishes everywhere...

30-12-11

2011-12-30T06:10:00.000-08:00

Time flies! I've missed out a lot of entries, but will try o fill in as often as possible! Sorry, ahakz.

The eve of new year's eve. Went to school for registration day. Saw kids with weird names, lots of foreigners. Lunch was on school, at Cheras Batu 11.

Then I drove to my new house in Cheras Jaya. I assembled a bed post, a wardrobe and bought a cabinet, apparently all in white color theme from IKEA. Am planning to have a paper lantern lamp fixture in my room as well. I suddenly realized that my passion in interior design is more than I expect. :) Will post pictures!

Took me one day. Drove to Sg Long to hand over the house keys and had to stop for painstaking visitor streaming progress.

23-11-11

2011-11-22T21:38:00.001-08:00

Since i'm pms-ing, the dreams are weird. There was one, where i subconsciously tries to recall who is my boyfriend. There was a struggle, i couldn't remember and felt so worried. Lol then i found out it was peki. Such a relieved. Wth?

I still have a research paper to do before flying. Bro's back from thai, bought a langkawi tshirt.

Cleaned my room. Surfed the net for hours. :( holidays are a waste if given to the wrong hands.

20-11-11

2011-11-22T05:28:00.001-08:00

It's han kuang and jade's wedding night. After packing, my parents, peki and i drove to shang.

Once reached, checked into suite, 400+ per night. We sneaked out to milkshake factory for a choc milk shake, then kinokuniya klcc.

Dinner was great. Met shu may, audrey's parents and saw tunkus. Went to had some cigar, overdrank a bit.

After that, we went for a kl tour, but was stuck in jam. The next morning, had breakfast buffet, then proceed to paoxiang bakuteh at pavilion for lunch. Ate so full that day. Lunch was on peki and me. Saw ultraman in pavilion japan culture exchange.

Later drove back, slept for 3 hours.

18-11-11

2011-11-18T18:02:00.001-08:00

Woke up tired. Draged myself to work, did the sorting of names and distributing before recess. The standard 6 was crazy. But during last period, the girls came to me crying. Lol also some last minute art work by standard 5 kids.

17-11-11

2011-11-18T17:50:00.001-08:00

Hollidays around the corner. I'm so relieved. Today was exam results distribution day, i went to ppd at 9 and found out lots of people were waiting. The teachers then crammed into the small room, and i was left standing at the sidelines, so i spoke up.

Once i got back, teachers were bombarding me, the messenger. Percentage this year declined, 40.3%. 8got full A's. Man, the kids here sucked. But simple.

Went to yi rou's place to sleep and wash up. She has a lot of clothes. Lol we went out for yang fu's farewell dinner at shogun 1u. Went the wrong way, plus the highway is jammed. Went to our destination in 2 hours. Had a great night, bought a bed combo for 70% off for colleagues birthday.

Came back around 11am. Woke up at 3 to retype all names for upsr. Was fatigued.

16-11-11

2011-11-16T05:39:00.001-08:00

Tmrws upsr result distribution. I am to drive to ppd to collect, process it and key in. Other teachers are busy parading.

I found out that my pendrive and money were gone. No wonder i felt weird and tensed. They were stolen.

I rearranged the dance group closet. Conducted a news paper cutting group work. Jammed all the way home so i clipped nails, made calls, and ate some fries. cold at night.

14-11-11

2011-11-14T07:18:00.001-08:00

I've lost my pendrives! Cursed my ass off. Got to be in 6B for the money distributing. Did some preparation for upsr as well.

Went to a mamak store to have roti pisang. Wifi zone, that's how you do business.

Went to class, rained. Found out next week our doc is not around, so i begged for yap to change at 19/12, and we're good. Happy class. :)

13-11-11

2011-11-13T01:37:00.001-08:00

Ran for cicm at setia alam, got placing 129, 1 hour and 20 minutes for 10km. Saw ah miao and berry.

Actually i have forgotten all about it till maggie called this morning. Both of us was grogy because of not enough sleep.

Came back, went jj for starbucks with dear. Then sit in an ogawa leg massage machine. Was limping because of the run.

Came back to prepare bento for dear's night shift. A pratha, 3 cooked sausages and mashed potatoes.

I did my ppt, but my friend seemed to be unhappy about me giving it to her late.

Stressful. Keep thinking i have forgotten something, but not sure what is.

11-11-11

2011-11-11T07:59:00.001-08:00

Woke up tired although slept early. Went to school only to find out we're going to endure craziness next week.

Let the kids play guess game. Stndrd 5 is better than the 6. Lol proves that kids have better developement if u play more.

Banked in my cheque for 1 and a half months. Had secret recipe's tomyam gung noodle, great food and value. Yummm

Did something funny. We preserve 11-11-11, 11.11pm by sending messages over each other's phone.

9-11-11

2011-11-09T04:00:00.001-08:00

Bought dad and mom a shade. Dad, in return taught me how to identify good durians, 3 things: light weighted, strong scented and has the sound of bergolekan in the shell. Bro bought a big durian for rm132.

Called ins today. Service was good, called me right back after they checked.

Last tuition, taught them a congo, lol. Craving for savory food.

7-11-11

2011-11-07T04:22:00.001-08:00

Mom's back! Took a taxi from subang airport. Then i drove them out to ngo jie's to have lunch. Had red wine mee sua. There are fu rong siew bao around here.

Did critique for the whole day, finally done at 8pm. Had dinner. Bro and karyeen bought from pasar malam, dad bought from vegetarian shop, mom cooked abc pork soup. :)

6-11-11

2011-11-07T04:13:00.001-08:00

Spent the day with dear. Went to secret recipes for 'buy one cake, free one drink' meal. It's cheap, rm6.50 for a mango cake and a cup of coffee.

Came back for dinner, chatted with dad and bro while eating dai chao.

It rained at night. Did my assignment, hungry again. Cooked maggi with pressure cooker and burnt my thumb. Lol

5-11-11

2011-11-05T05:23:00.001-07:00

Morning ate self made breakfast. Steamed eggs, small pau, man tao and sausages.

Headed to toyota service centre, dad drove. Was lost a bit, but found it later. Paid 380.

Played games in the afternoon, went for badminton. How i miss hiking and training.

I am feeling edgy cause university work is dawning on me. Thank goodness for monday holiday.

4-11-11

2011-11-04T08:23:00.001-07:00

Dragged myself to school. I didn't sleep the whole night. Dad helped.

School dance wasn't that good. I didn't help the kids make up, so the pk came howling at me for not doing my job. So i did, make up in 15 minutes for 12 girls.

Pics from left second, orange sponge cake, class kid who is cute and singer-wanabe, chinese yoyo, enormous cake soccer field sponsored, two boys singing jb never say never (they can sing!), two girls singing songs, food time with enormous portions, xiang sheng, kiap peanuts competition. :)

Came back fell into sleep for 5 hours.

Woke up hearing mom's news, shes well and fine.

Knowing ive stepped on a few teachers' tails, i could say i admire my guts.

3-11-11

2011-11-04T07:23:00.001-07:00

Spring cleaning for childrens day. Also, getting invitation cards, class decor, finger food cones, mc, gifts and performances.

Mad with shopping... Went GM to buy smurf keychains which cost 70 cents each. Bought for colleagues too.

Then head to giant to get food. I'm frying french fries, wedges, nuggets, chilli fried chicken and fruits. Didnt know how to deal with frying meehun, so i gave it to the canteen aunty to do it for me for rm10.

Worked the whole night. Was a nightmare, i coudn't sleep, mom wasn't around. Was calling mom, mom, mom throughout the night while frying. Lol

2-11-11

2011-11-02T08:35:00.001-07:00

Kids' love letters, was laughing like a cow. 9 years old acting like they know wtf is love.

Carpool with colleagues to uniten for undi workshop. Getting extra allowance up to 300, cool. Got back early, reached at 4, slept till 8.

Ms yap, the dance instructor told me about the afternoon session class being canceled. And she helps me send the kids back. Great help she is.

Did research for children's day. Am stressed.

1-11-11

2011-11-02T08:29:00.001-07:00

First day on the way home. Raining like crazy.

Given out the clothes. The girls seems ecstatic with the performance. Conducted a sewing class today. They were quiet, cool.

Afternoon exam. Out of 40, got 9 wrong. Unacceptable since i had high hopes.

Had mcd on the way home, stuck in jam for 2 hours. Mom's away for vacation at sabah.

31-10-11

2011-10-31T09:29:00.001-07:00

Children's day is near. They're transfixed. Music, food games, fun and performances.

Class got the first in collected newspaper as much as rm115! They'd be thrilled.

Upm class, told the lec about aus trip, he asked me for a note. Tmrw exam for research methods.

Realized i could be a lecturer in maktab, while broadening my scope in edu, i'll still be enlisted in pencen skim.

30-10-11

2011-10-30T06:52:00.001-07:00

Jj sale. Brought mom and dad for a shoes shopping spree!

Bought 3 pairs. Dad's are brooks, 60% off, normal $ rm399, sale $ rm160. Mom's and mine are newbalance, normal $ rm199, sale $ rm100.

Enjoyable family outing. :)

30-10-11

2011-10-30T02:25:00.001-07:00

Mom's steamed corn, love it. Had teow chew style porridge for lunch and dinner. Felt more like a teow chew than a hainamese today.

Dear came, he brought biltong to munch, a kind of beef jerky, processed into beef floss, then crushed together into beef stick. His sister bought back from cape town. Pricey though i love it. Addictive.

At night we had wine and watched captain america. Movie nights.

Next morning we went subway for brunch. Saw rosham nor. In the afternoon i made sushi with tuna flakes, carrot, sausage, eggs and indian rice. Talk about rich. He's bringing it to work, night shifts.

29-10-11

2011-10-28T21:47:00.001-07:00

It's second year in a flash. I wish i were a bit more hardworking. Starting to be financially and health conscious.

The great view of my office during book distribution period, and also friday mood. Also there was a talk about environmental awareness.campaign by tsu ji.

Our country is plunging into bankruptcy, haven't we notice? It's time for change.

Night, went to gym. Awful lot of people. A couple was walking ahead of me near the entrance. They turned around, saw me, the guy did a puking sound, they both giggled. Oh what, so now im in your path? Discriminators should rot in idiocy.

27-10-11

2011-10-27T07:24:00.001-07:00

It's another rainy day. Thailand floods are at its peak. We're really lucky to still celebrating festivals and having a warm bed to go to.

I tried to think of my previous behavior. Threatening break up, emotional black mail, lack of trust, pick on small matters, these all really irks my man, i know.

But what should i do to hold on to the balance? Maybe having everything thought negatively is killing both of us inside. It is my fault, but i hope it isn't too late to change the consequences.

25-10-11

2011-10-26T06:56:00.001-07:00

Gosh, its a nightmare. Woke up feeling a tug in my abdomen, and the next thing i know its that time of a month again.

Bro is getting engaged soon. Meeting up between parents tomorrow.

I wish life could be easier.

24-10-11

2011-10-25T07:11:00.001-07:00

Rainy deepavali.

Im coughing my lungs out, twitchy voice.

Spent the day doing some chores, day dreaming, feeling guilty for not starting on assignments and read ups.

Drove mom n dad to little india to jaafar. Dad has fever. I thought of seeing doc too, but doc put me on my dads tab, half price.

24-10-11

2011-10-24T06:44:00.000-07:00

Happy divali. Fireworks everywhere. :)

It is 3 consecutive days off for me. Bro bought me Nasi Lemak for breakfast.

I drove to Baddgoz, Damansara to pick up the album and DVD. Just as promised, great delivery, great price, great service, great people. The one above is my fav.

Was thinking of driving to JJ to see Jenifer since she asked for help to do some Halloween makeup. Turns out her boss did it for her because they had a photo shoot in very shot term notice.

So I went to Harbour place to watch a movie instead. It is SUPER cold, although I was wearing a tee shirt and jeans. There weren't much people but the show is still on time, good screenings as well. See 1st pic: Real Steel. Hugh Jackman is really sexy with that fatherly approach.

Also went Daiso and picked up a roller. I know, looks like balls.

Chatted with dear a while ago and realized the Lion King voucher I bought is only redeemed in KLCC and it has already finish screening. It's a waste, but lesson learnt. :( (See last pic KLCC)

23-10-11

2011-10-23T08:42:00.001-07:00

Chong wei lost to chen long in denmark open. Sigh. This is the end of malaysian legend.

Woven a paper basket with some unused paper stock. Some previous artwork by my students as well.

23-10-11

2011-10-22T20:02:00.001-07:00

Spend my saturday at home. Did a champagne glass fruit jello. Its for babe's belated birthday.

Finally handed pressie to babe as well. A fragrance for men.

Wearing my trophy tshirt today. Mom likes the cloth fibre, whilst i love the message intended.

21-10-11

2011-10-21T17:49:00.001-07:00

Feverish.

Came back in the afternoon and fried rice to eat. Drank half a bottle of 100 plus. Missed my appointment. Watched a lot of tv. So many good shows haha.

20-10-11

2011-10-20T04:20:00.001-07:00

Dan lain-lain. I feel bad for them.

School was good, finally gotten the book fees cleared. Imagine, from a accounting idiot to a manager pro, handling 3k. Hehe

Went to jj to grab some ingredients: dark choc bar, biscuits, pasta, jello moulds and some measuring spoons.

Made some biscuit crumb choc bites. Too sweet.

19-10-11

2011-10-19T09:15:00.001-07:00

In holiday mood.

Anyways, a few kids cheated in maths exam just now. Deduct 20 marks.

A few girls shouted at each other.

I manage to finish marking my 2nd last paper.

Can't wait to spend some me time. This 5 days will be gym, assignment, exam, gym, cook, craft, blog, car.

18-10-11

2011-10-18T05:49:00.001-07:00

Jam jam jam.

Deepavali's around the corner. Jammed 2 hours back home. Went to upm for class today, exam after deepa. :)

17-10-11

2011-10-18T05:45:00.001-07:00

Monday. Sigh. Got back early to klang just to get some sleep.

But when i set off to class in upm, iwas stuck in jam for 2 hours. Frustrated. When i reached at 7, the class was over. They laughed at me.

Nevertheless, i went to the library.

16-10-11

2011-10-18T05:44:00.001-07:00

Leaving, feeling sad. They were tossing people into the sea before waving goodbye. Bought some souvenirs, set off to kl.

Reached kl around 7. Was at kl central when i saw malaysians still havent learnt to queue.

Yin was sleeping over.

15-10-11

2011-10-18T05:43:00.003-07:00

Left pic taken from the 500 steps jetty and windmill, the most breathtaking view I have ever dreamt of seeing in PIC.

Challenge day. Sleep was fine. Around 7 after breakfast we got to perhentian kecil for opening ceremony.

350 contestants, ranging from 21 to 70, participated in this pic. I was the novice, while some hardcore players were elite.

Novice are required to run a course of 14km, while elite were to endure 9+14km and a 1.2 km swim in the strong current of the sea.

Setting off, i was struggling to get through the line of people. We hiked 4 mountains, terrain rate 3, but distance 4 out of 5. There is a beautiful windmill with a killer 500 steps of stairs on perhentian kecil. The scene was crystal blue.

Got back after 3+ hours, legs were fine, only a few scratches here and threre.

Waited for yin to complete hers. Around 6, she finally came.

At night, there was a closing ceremony at kampung keke. Had the best sup lembu ever.

I had the greatest time of my life. I pledge my love and passion to hike and run. :)

15-10-11

2011-10-18T05:43:00.001-07:00

Morning 7am. Called the office and told gpk1 that my tyre deflatted.

Reached the beautiful besut beach and jetty. The contestants are full of colors.

Joyful, relaxed and sombre, we set sailed to perhentian besar for camp set up.

We went for 4 snorkellings for the price of rm30, saw a turtle, got to know a few friends. Had lots of fun.

Was remorseful for not bringing a mat, torch, goggles, and enough water. But with the help of our neighbor, jimmy, we were fine. :)

14-10-11

2011-10-18T05:42:00.001-07:00

Did a little project with the kids, called marketing brochure. Basic cut and paste.

Very excited yet worried about the pic trip. Peki's idea is to fake a car break down and get emergency leave.

Sze yin came at 4, we set off to matic at 6pm. When we reach, we were early. After registration, we chatted with the raleigh personnels.

Anyways, the huge heel is a jimmy choo convention advertising in matic.

12-10-11

2011-10-12T02:52:00.001-07:00

I was not really in a good mood, partly because of my tiredness. I caned the all the kids on one reason, being too noisy when the teacher is not around. Ive probably put too much expectations on them.

Another thing bugging me is the mc for tomorrow, timing to reach matic and the sleepless journey. I wasn't able to celebrate sayang's birthday which falls on tomorrow.

Anyway, election is going to be held at school. All the single teachers are required to work as helpers. Should be very soon.

11-10-11

2011-10-11T07:44:00.001-07:00

Conducted a class nominee session with s5. Solved some conflict, uncover some lies as well.

Made sushi with s6. Mixed olive oil with sugar instead of vinegar. Rice wasn't succint so they wrapped the ingredients without rice and ate it on the spot.

Extreme fatigue. Stomach queasy. Today research methods class was canceled. So i went photostat, petrol station, did some uni work, and finally reach home at 4.

Slept for 2 hours after coming back.

10-10-11

2011-10-10T06:55:00.001-07:00

Stomach bloated since yesterday, had food with distaste although hungry. Setting my mind for this coming pic and also deepavali of 5 days.

After tuition, i came to jj to buy japanese rice and to fill up stomach. Bought sushi and gelato fruits yogurt in savory sour sop flavor.

Upm thinking class, whilst tomorrow's research methods is canceled.

9-10-11

2011-10-08T23:40:00.001-07:00

Run for your life, teluk pulai. 35 minutes, 6km. Got into first 30 in young women category. :)

Was disoriented when trying to find my own car but asked for rela's help, which they did. Hehe.... Paiseh.

Anyways, road bulls are everywhere nowadays. Made a poster for anti road bulls.

Had loh mee for lunch at the house stall with generous serving of vinegar.

8-10-11

2011-10-08T15:06:00.001-07:00

It's a rainy saturday. I slept for 15 hours since last night. I'm that exhausted.

Around afternoon, i drove to glenn cruise port to visit logos hope. Took kesas follow pulau indah and westport, on the way to westport take right turn at a traffic light. Thanks to a friend who had shown the way.

Met up with mei yun from seremban, felt bad for not able to show her around klang. Its a good tour, mind opening and some eye candy feasting too. A book fair with more than 50k books, and volunteers from 45 countries and a cozy deck.

Now waiting for the people to be here for badminton. Had fun, peki was here too.

Night, we went to fish in manhattan for the giant fried platter. By the time we reach, i was so hungry that i insisted on him to buy a Crockett from jusco to fill the empty stomach. Thank goodness we did, the food came at 9pm.

7-10-11

2011-10-07T03:27:00.001-07:00

From top, a memorandum made by a talented teacher for our pk1, leaving this year. The dinner would be held at shogun, oneU.

Next would be my shoes, which are still covered with guano although it is the forth day ive dip it. :p

Bottom pic, kimchi. Love kimchi especially after food.

Friday. Woke up feeling tired.

But as usual,my mind pre planned must do list and as soon as i reached school, things were done quite automatically.

A teacher gave me a tuition class for substitute so it was tuition until 3. After that i went midval to grab some used bags for the jumble sale i preplanned.

When i got back, it was already 5, had some kimchi, legs elevated, enjoying the good old rainy friday.

6-10-11

2011-10-06T06:02:00.001-07:00

Did fish raring session with class students. It was at my boiling point, kids throwing things at each other, water spilling and crowd cheering.

I was swearing all the while trying to conduct.

Good gracious. Very angry today. Kids playing truant again. The same problematic girl and a boy who has potential. I will have to do something tomorrow. Holding a bag up perhaps? Writing 100 times i will not lie perhaps? Buggers. Gets on my nerves.

Got a breakaway with lily and jk. Went to have lunch at t-bowl, the toilet bowl cafe. The theme is interesting, but the food tasted like real crap, and overpriced too. My advice is don't go.

Other than that, i met with a fucking road bully just now. He wanted to maneuver into my lane but he didn't put signal, so i din let him, but he opened his car window and knocked my car with his fist, threatened to come down as well. Vios BKQ 2332 a sucker who knows no manners.

5-10-11

2011-10-05T08:09:00.001-07:00

We laughed, chatted and reminescenced under the fluorescent lights of... Zhen zhen hao. Lol...

5-10-11

2011-10-05T03:51:00.001-07:00

Rainy. Kids doing anti dadah poster.

Was rather in a bad mood. Kids running off to the mines during tuition, me feeling guilty after scolding the kids.

However, i did manage to clear all receipts for dance group, received the check, did laundry, and printed lms.

Next thing in the list are, fundraise ideas, plan for pic, plan aus trip and lastly work on proposal. Will be staying in sg long next year. Neat. By then i can get both tuition and studies at hand. :)

Meeting up with lili, my long lost friend tonight. I havent changed much now have i?

4-10-11

2011-10-04T05:25:00.001-07:00

Today's sandwich making was such a smooth, not to say great, success. Kids had outperformed themselves, showed collaboration and had fun in their progress. I received 7 sandwiches, gave away most, ate some.

Apart from that, i have taught a class kid to wrap his text books, by demonstrating to him during recess. Within 1 hour, he managed to wrap 5 books.

Slept in the car before class. Class in upm, research methods. Our first assignment is out. 8 questions with options.

Now waiting for mom in front of center. Mom has quit and will be working till this november. After that i will be moving out. :) not sure where to stay yet though.

Peki relieved my financial distress by paying up my credit cards debts which had piled up feverously due to uni fees, credit fees, car, insurance, australian fees, hence im plotting for jumbo sale in nov. Havent found the perfect venue yet, but think it could be held in amcorp mall or kompleks sukan. I believe with strong positive thinking, it will materialize.

2-10-11

2011-10-01T18:46:00.003-07:00

Run for peace! Managed to finish route within 45 minutes.

Stage performance highlight, gym boys, singing. We did face painting as well. There were trucks for free drinks: oligo energy drinks, milo, nescafe etc. Most applauded for the rela and sokahan, gajukai members. Ensured the whole event to a peak success. Goodie bags and cert retrieving are very smooth as well. :)

1-10-11

2011-10-01T15:04:00.001-07:00

Fun saturday! I went to raleigh october monthly meet and adventure phase at dark cave, and its really at a reasonable price. Instead of RM80, we've got it with RM35.

The 19 year old tour guide was cute to begin with, and knowledgable, warm. I've gotten a lot of insight on cave life forms, new terms, new extremity, new friends.

During adventure phase, one would see plenty of cockroaches, be it australian, american and local. There was also a glimpse of the spider milipede, which is wicked!! The soil made out of guano is their maintainity.

As we enter the adventure phase it was really challenging, enjoyable later. The hole is only 60cm height and 80cm width, where one can only crawl with his belly, hence the scratches and bruises on the knees and elbows.

So when we came out, we were all mud soaked. But i truly enjoyed it.

On the way back, i was lost a little and quarrelled with my gps. Badminton in the evening.

30-9-11

2011-09-30T04:18:00.001-07:00

An advertisement that caught my eyes in the papers, so funny.

Today was another laid back day. I went to fitness first, met up with jennifer, hands over my gym member card for her to swipe. I feel guilty for not doing my abs exercise that she had told me.

That day she noticed my tattoo, and thought i smoked too. Lol

Came back feeling lethargic, but not that tired physically. Feeling guilty for not starting what I've planned. Planning 2 things: a blog for used items at one price, ten bucks. 2nd, a virtual classroom targeted for parents, teachers and kids whi wants to learn from home. Most probably charging rm100 per year. How does that sound? A successful enterpreneur wannabe?

Spent on some tank tops, idle shopping.

29-9-11

2011-09-29T03:17:00.001-07:00

It's a beautiful day. School was a breeze. Nothing too big or too tough to handle.

Government is imposing a raise on dg 29 teachers who had worked for than 8 years. It's good news to all because i don't have to feel preasured for the same amount of workload, but with a difference in salary among the teachers.

Anyways a coleague bought a box of red dates from china, which aren't dried. Tasted great.

I'm now attending the oath taking ceremony for upm masters.

After brainstorming for a niche for my website, I've decided to work on a virtual classroom. It should work, targeted for parents. :) in the mean time i should just sell stuff on eBay.

27-9-11

2011-09-27T04:33:00.001-07:00

Currently stuck in a traffic jam after research methods class in upm. Feeling a tingling of sickiness in my throat.

Day was ok. Had a counselling srssion with the girl who ran away. She's clear. Apparently she was staying over at a classmates house.

I'm thinking of starting a content website regarding child development, later infusing affiliates.

Anyways, travelling back home in the evening is a bliss.

26-9-11

2011-09-26T07:30:00.001-07:00

Feeling sick. Last night spent some time with peki, listening to his rather erotic stories while at penang.

Had a taste of the not so famous salted chicken as well. Tat seng chicken, which was at jalan theatre. I missed ipoh, so i've decided to bring mom and dad to ipoh next two weekends.

Day was good. Planning to switch celcom plan to data plan. Was thinking of venturing into affiliates as well, it worked for bro, might work for covering my debts too.

25-9-11

2011-09-25T03:21:00.001-07:00

My little nephew. He has a tooth growing in his upper gums already. Very cute and smart.

Anyway i've collected the run for peace shirt which is going to held next weekend.

My friend helped me to bank in via cimb click. Sigh, credit fees, another heavy duty expense. Gotta work hard for money.

24-9-11

2011-09-23T16:28:00.001-07:00

It's 7 one the morning and I was just up by 5 minutes. This is the great thing of having an android phone. I have a meet up with Jenny in ff later. The session is 1 and a half hours.

After that I will be going to look for a few shirts and pants to be brought to travel, as opposed to the tumbling wardrobe I have in the house. I'm also supposed to pay up my credit fees in upm today, so i will be heading straight to upm. Hopefully I could get most things sorted out today. In the evening, I will be in school for mid autumn festival. Probably going to bail out early.

My concerns has resided today. The kids had returned to her family. The upsr thingy is done. Now, I will be focusing on studies. I wish I could add a few more subjects to my course and finish my masters within one and a half years. Fingers crossed.

Have a good day peeps!

2-9-11

2011-09-01T18:11:00.000-07:00

Raya mood getting to an end.
Things I did:
1. Raleigh monthly meet at Gombak
2. Registration at UPM for masters
3. Hiked Ampang Hill and Bukit Belacan
4. Jeram Besu white water rafting and 百叶山 FWD with Lee Hoong and friends
5. Bukit Tinggi school trip
6. we broke up
Things happen quickly. People enter your life, people stay or they pass by. I wish it's not the end of us yet, but my heart is in a huge mess right now. I need a rest.

1-9-2011

2011-08-31T12:45:00.000-07:00

Last month, exactly on this date, my thoughts went berserk, as illustrated by my special someone. My reaction was ridiculous, or so he said.

25 year of wisdom doesn't cover this, I thought. 25 years of rolling in the deep.

Sometimes I wished I was single, and stop looking, stop thinking, stop trying to figure things out.

Tomorrow, I'd be updating my blog about my recent doings. I've been very busy.

感觉是个庸妇

2011-07-31T23:14:00.000-07:00

感觉是个庸妇
嘟嘟囔囔的
怀疑这怀疑那
怕总有一天
一去不回头
为什么就那么抛下我
为什么就现在才说
心好悲
好想一刀斩乱麻
放手却爱之甚

28-6-2011

2011-06-28T05:45:00.000-07:00

Optimism is a thought away

In the morning I woke up feeling grumpy.
Meta KQ: enough girl, have a grip. What are you thinking right now?
IT KQ: I'm thinking, why do I have to go to school, why am I so bad at waking up etc.
Meta KQ: The thoughts you're holding on, does it help to improve?
IT KQ: not really. They just bring my mood down all day and it affects the kids and my social.
Meta KQ: So what should you think instead?
IT KQ: Hmm...That I'm not late, and I'm just in time, and I'm right to wake up at 5.10 am every morning?
Meta KQ: that's right. Keep going. Find the good of each thought and eradicate the bad ones.
IT KQ: You're right.

So I looked myself in the mirror and smiled. Hey, it's not a bad day after all. Turned out optimism is a thought away.

IT KQ: Why is everyone else so much popular than me?
Meta KQ: Why is this thought in your mind?
IT KQ: I'm jealous.
Meta KQ: Think what you have instead.
IT KQ: Hmm....She talked to me and smiled this morning. The kids have a great time in class the other day.
Meta KQ: Right. Look, you're good at what you do. What are you still worrying about?
IT KQ: That I'll never do enough.
Meta KQ: Does this thought help you to improve yourself?
IT KQ: Not really. It makes me gnaw on a mistake all day long. I'm devastated.
Meta KQ: What should you think instead?
IT KQ: That I've did the task with 0 mistakes, and hey, I've outdid the last post-holder.
Meta KQ: That's good babe. Keep it up.

And so I had another good mood day.

27-6-2011

2011-06-27T04:53:00.000-07:00

I feel like a teenager again. Rage. Low self-esteem. Uncertainty.

At school, I'm not a socializing person. And because of somethings I do, I rarely got close friends.
In daycare, mom seems to siding me a bit too much. I know I'm a brat.

I really hope I could change the way I present myself. Maybe add a bit of smiles on the poker face, and some carefree spirit.

Maybe I should stop thinking, and be myself. Gah, it's all so teenager thoughts again.

31-5-2011

2011-05-31T08:34:00.000-07:00

Important Things and People

Not long ago, I sent an FB greet to a group of old friends who had moved to Sg half a year ago. And since then they have become a stone thrown into the sea, after the ripples nothing is to be found or seen. I thought our friendship could have withstood longer than that. I know sometimes I had wronged them but it wouldn't have to be so bad till none of them replied. Maybe the only way to proof them wrong about my worth is by living a better life than theirs. (gritted teeth)

Recently the group of friends from FC has conquered another mountain, this time Bukit Tabur. I was very much tempted to join but ended up staying back and watching Pirates Of the Caribbean. I felt cheap. Like the old shoes I hold on dearly so much but were too worn out to wear. I felt angry of myself for drifting with the flow. I'm still single (FYI not married), I shouted daringly in my mind. Never again will I stop myself from doing anything because of a BF aka boss (although his intentions are good, it IS a highly hazardously rated peak). I wanted to go Taman Pertanian or Putrajaya in exchange but in the end, I couldn't wake up from my bed on Sunday morning. Sheesh

But I need to keep track of important things and people in my life. The people who loves me genuinely (I know who you are and I love you too although you'll get complaints if you hold on too tight). So that I won't overdo it or overlook it. The key is to balance. I'm always off balanced. Always in the middle of a pursue. Always in anxiety (thanks to my third cup of coffee per day). Always in an adrenalin rush. Always onto something. Couldn't stop if I really have too. Half of me is enjoying it, half of me is screaming in agony.

23-5-2010

2011-05-23T07:15:00.000-07:00

I'm not ready yet

Truth to tell, I'm not ready to be laid off in my part time job. The daycare has been facing conflicts among the stake holders and I am in the position of being sacrificed. Now that I'm going to be let off, I need to think of a backup plan. It's not like the end of the world or something, yet it is a worrisome issue at the back of my head.

Next is taking up Masters next year. The letter has come to my doorstep offering me a full time Masters degree at UPM starting 2012. I should be taking it but still, a lot has changed in a flash of a pan and I need the sparing income of my part time job, now thrown into the fire.

On the other hand, Peki asked me if I could lend him my house loan. That could consequently lead to the M word. I know I've been bringing up the subject as a desired thing for me in this relationship, but I have just started everything and the subject is not expected to be brought up till 2014 after my Masters and expedition. And that too, will lead me to be able to transfer school. Which is another BIG change for me as well.

As in Raleigh, I thought I could stop all the hecticness for a while, but a new task has just been offered to me which is to guide the new Charlie team in their PIWP. The Charlie team in this case is a very cool team by the way, I'm more than willing to help. But I've been overdoing it since last two months, I need a break from all that.

Now that all problems and changes are facing me into the face, I need to slaugter them one by one.

19-5-2011

2011-05-19T07:45:00.000-07:00

25 years more

It all seems a bliss for me, even when I hear the roaring of the rumors of the end of the world on this coming weekend. I would be somewhere in the middle of the tropical humid rainforest, digging a long-drop.

Today when I was telling the class of how ungrateful everyone of us can be to our mothers, I nearly burst into tears. Some kids caught my whimper.

I finished reading Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants Part1 & 2, and I can feel the lump pressing up to rise. Such a wonderfully depicted story. The next book will be the third. Remembered, when I found the three books in Summit bookstore, I shrieked with joy.

I feel so down lately. Had been loathing FB as well. Loathed school, but promised myslf never to take up an MC again, no matter what mom tells. And I swear I will take up the world by storm. Live our lives to the fullest. I guess.

16-5-11

2011-05-16T05:27:00.000-07:00

Happy Teacher's Day to Me！

I received a few pressies from my students, one moved me. A comic book which he drew that goes in motion. His present will remain in my possession for a long time. Anyway, I'm feeling bitter with the little amount of pressies that I get this year. :p I know it's a childish thing, but presents actually makes someone feel appreciated, you know? No, you don't know. I remember in Makta*b, the girls and I quietly compete with each other on everything, including beauty, presents, amount of points. But NOW it all seems pointless. I would like to celebrate my birthday sometimes with my loved ones too, and even get a piece of jewellery that I can show off, you know? Lol... everything is an extension of ego.

Anyways, this weekend I will be going to IW as a staff member. I hope I get there in time. Another thing to note is that on last Saturday, the star weekender decides to publish my IW press release into the newspaper. And the participantion picked up ever since. I feel like I did everything solo, so this time I'm trying to shun myself away from responsibilities.

Lately I saw a contest regarding "What's your Nestle Thrill". I'm going to produce a video using Peki's camera and my biggest wish is actually not the first prize, but the finalists' prize, which is Canon camera. Some effort will be put in this video. Stay tuned and wish me luck.

11-5-11

2011-05-11T02:31:00.000-07:00

Hush Baby Hush

Seeing babies cooing and caaing in mothers' arms, I can't help but wish that I could go back to my childhood, where I could sleep away the days and not to worry about nothing else in the world but myself.

But I have to face the fact that eventually one day everyone will grow old. I am now working two jobs per day STRUGGLING to pay for the house, car and daily expenses, while my dear brother who is 5 years older than me is still living on my mother's pay, not only that, he wants to marry his girlfriend. With free cash flow into his pocket and plenty of time to spare, who doesn't want to get married and live happily with the support of his half-a-century old mother?

The story is easy. After months of waiting, my brother has gotten himself into MLM, a company that offers online business and income IF you work hard enough. Since then he has been working part time in the daycare center the same as mine. Seeing my brother this way, my mom forked out 2k to sustain his OMFMFOZG way of over-spending lifestyle on top of his regular 700 salary. He doesn't even have to pay for his car. Our household expenses are now left that 1k plus my 5oo per month to cater all his morning-play-in-the-house and night-eat-and-dine-out !@#$%&()_+_)#@!@#$&()_)(*&^$#@! MF exquisite livelihood. So now mom is short of cash and she has to borrow my savings for some nysterious investment, obviously prompted my brother.

IF I FOUND OUT THAT THEY ARE ON TO SOMEWHERE IN THE MOTHER FUCKING ONLINE BUSINESS OR SHITASS BUSINESS WHICH NOONE CARED ABOUT, I'M ABOUT TO MARRY SOMEONE AND TAKE FLIGHT OF THIS IDIOTIC FAMILY! I SWEAR TO GOAT!

10-5-11(2)

2011-05-10T06:19:00.000-07:00

A moment of truth

Love is easy to be said than to be done.

Yesterday I was wobbly and sickly but still determined to send all the badges out (all 8 packages of them). Peki came after servicing his car and he sent me to the nearest clinic. It took an hour just to wait for the after school traffic to subside and for the nurse to call my name in, but I think that's all it takes for me to see how much patience he has in store. The doctor is an ethical one, he prescribed the right meds.

Later we went to Tesco to mail the stuff. The post office was crowded. I tried to cut in to buy the envelopes, but he, the patient one took a number and waited silently. Seeing him, I guiltily fell into the line. When we've gotten all the envelopes, he wrote on all the 'senders' sheet a full copy of the house address.

We got home, I took some porridge and he started breaking the medicine pills into half. He then filled a cup of warm water and asked me to drink up and take the charcoal tablet. I then napped a bit and he set an alarm just to wake me up to take the remainder of the meds.

After sleeping for an hour, the alarm rang and he went downstairs to get the meds for me. He later fed me the meds while I was in bed, still woozy from the previous pill. I then slept for another hour knowing that I'm in good hands.

In the end of times like this, I wish I could savor every moment with him. Loving him and having him by my side when I need him is the most I could wish for, even when tomorrow might be the last day we're here on earth.

10-5-11

2011-05-09T20:31:00.000-07:00

Spread myself too thin

I came across a phrase that my team mate used to describe me a while ago, and it strikes me.

The event went well,
the badge making charity fund a lot,
the PR thing now up-to-date 15 participants (looks like I have to make a plunge in this one),
UPSR registration still ongoing (but I took two days MC due to SEVERE diarrhea),
Daycare center still going good.

I have been taking a few days off within these few weeks and I wonder if that has anything to do with me spreading myself too thin. Thank goodness for Peki, who spent a day looking after me and running errands for me, I'm now at least good enough to sit upright without feeling any rumbling in the abdomen.

Life is tough, but when there's someone around to look out for you, life gets easier. :)

13-4-2011

2011-04-13T06:10:00.000-07:00

Happy 100th blog!

Things are really speeding up and I seem to run out of time all of a sudden.
Here's a few things that I need to keep on tab:

Raleigh PIWP:
1. Fund raise RM600 at least. So I need to create a blog, create various button badges, create a poster about it and distribute the order forms, and promote on FB.

2. Gather men before 30th April. I need to start an event on FB telling people about the Orang Asal Hut building project, and advocate it to the public through blog.

Raleigh PR:
1. Call radio stations to advertise for free. I think I will come up with a voice recording as a Raleigh IW media kit for them to understand more about Raleigh.

2. Call newspapers and magazines to follow up. Will attach a write up about Raleigh, a commemorative video about experiences of ex-venturers compilation, and picture thumbnails about Raleigh activities.

3. Organize a freeze mob in the middle of mid valley. Promote Raleigh to the public.

UPSR
1. Print out all 215 slip peperiksaan for the GB.

Modern Dance Group
1. Record vids of upcoming dance and post on FB wall.

Tawau
1. Pre-plan itinerary for snorkelling trips

Australia
1. Pre-plan (detailed information) for Sydney-Melbourne-Gold Coast trip.
2. I will look for kind hosts in Australia through

4-4-11

2011-04-03T16:11:00.000-07:00

Great moments are meant to be shared

First of all, my life changed 180 degrees, thanks to Ral*eigh. Now I'm a lead organizer of my group of 9, and I have so many events and meet-ups with new people in my life. We should savour the moment when we're still young, so I try my best.

I'm working on this charity fund-raising event for the Orang Asal (Asli) in Gombak and there will be a moderate scale event going to be held. I've been scouring on resources and ideas and finally my friend came up with this brilliant idea of doing something that I will reveal soon.

She's funding for her expedition as well, makes me think how should I fund-raise for myself. For me, I'm a girl that prefers to stay low-profiled. Since my target date for expedition is around 2013-2014, I could start doing an online business doing handicrafts. This idea has been stuck in my head for years now. First, pop up cards, cards, hand-sewn pouches, and now my sis lend me a badge maker machine which is really cool. Some people collect them as far as I know.

In school, I have been dealing with UPSR miscellaneous tasks. In Daycare center it hasn't been good for a while, 4 kids dropped off because of their own problems. But life in general, smooth-sailing, challenging, mind-boggling, exciting.

23-2-11

2011-03-23T03:40:00.000-07:00

An experience to be remembered for a life time

I've been in camps. Big, small, been there, done that. Yet this Ral*eigh camp is a camp to remember for a life time.

I know I'm quite old compared to others, but the spirit is young. Crazy activities and great staffs. Valuable lessons and quality obstacles.

After the camp, I've gotten into a sudden madness of taking a one year leave off my mundane job to join expeditions. Mom and dad will definitely give me a big x. But Peki gave encouragement. :)

Yesterday was our 2nd year anniversary. yay! My love to him never subsided. It just connects somehow. I wonder if he feels the same.
I'm looking up, far, but don't know what I'm looking for. But I'm happy, because there is something to look forward to. I'm starting to love my life again.

xoxo

8-3-2011

2011-03-08T03:36:00.000-08:00

Soar

Mom has forced me to quit for three days at the center. She decided to let me off and let my brother take over the meticulous task of herding the half baked kids. I am off the grid after hearing the decision. My mind was suddenly clear again. Things has been slightly looking up after a while. I stopped thinking about the unpredictable, instead concentrate on doing what I like.

There will be trips coming up soon, and my calendar is already full till dec!
Well first off, upcoming trip is to Seremban, to meet up the girls obviously.
Then I'm joining Raleigh for the first time ever for a three day two nights introduction trip.
Next, I'll be heading to Maroon 5 concert with myself. (nvm that...)
A good diving trip at Sipadan with the girls.
July, maybe a trip to Sarawak with my brother and SIL.
And on Dec, we'll be threading towards Australia!!! And I'm all giddy about it.
Although for sure I will be broke for the year! Gotta stop spending. :)

Today I made a cut on my Amlife Assurance. I was unsure at first, but the service at Amlife Center got me cheering for my right decision. Let's just say, good services go far, especially in this case, 21 years. Poor attitude, lazy promptness and pure rudeness. Maybe I'm just not meant to be.

Speaking of decisions, I've kinda made a lot of mistakes in my life, but some are lessons to be learnt, while some are worth the risk.
For instance, I left my previous lover for good.
I dropped the idea of taking Masters, at least not so soon.
I went ahead for my love (Maybe he's regretting it, I dunno).
I came back home to stay.
I joined a new group of friends, which leads to many new friendship possibilities which I adore.
I never stopped dreaming, and I realized that money was never and will never be the fuel to my engines, but it always come to my unrealistic dreams that buoys me on the surface of happiness.

22-2-11

2011-02-22T05:44:00.000-08:00

Obsessed

Nowadays, I'm pretty obsessed with multiple thoughts that haunt me throughout long sleepless nights. What else than the end of days? I feel so grim and aimless, and has put all my future plans aside. The Ambank savings plan that is going to fruit by 2030 has to be put to a halt. I've also extended my Masters and is waiting for the shadowy times to pass, and outstation trips to a full stop because...... I just don't have the mood.

Another reason is because I find my life...... friendless. It is really devastating when you find yourself laughing, walking the malls, chatting, eating at a new place, sharing a good/bad news, going to a concert, singing Karaoke, watching a movie alone.

Speaking of concert, Maroon 5 is coming to town. That too, I'm going alone. It's just a matter of time that I will slip out of the tide and get stuck somewhere in the era (if we are going to).

I'm 25 this year. I'm stuck with a job and has the post-syndrome to depression. I'm mostly unhappy all the time. I'm not begging for mercy or craving for attention, I just feel life has not been my cup of tea lately.

Grim, friendless, end of days just around the corner, I might as well......quit this life. Oh wait, I can't.

4-2-11

2011-02-03T18:07:00.000-08:00

CNY

For the past few CNYs I was taking everything for granted. Abundance of food, friends and family, and a house to live in. This year is a bit different, while the peninsular suffers from drastic flash floods and unpredictable storms, I now feel blessed for what I have.

The 2012 dooms*day hoax/truth is building up a mass hysteria at a rapid rate. Since the north pole ice caps are melting, climate changing is occurring in every corner of our earth. Predictions has it, once the icecaps melts away the earth will loose its balance and develop a cataclysmic polar shif*t . All I could think of is "Earth's gotta do, what an Earth's gotta do." I could only chant for 2013 CNY to come with peace or in one piece.

I have a new resolution, which is if we made it through, I will spend my life devoting in my green home, where recyclable energy used at its maximum capacity, and a self-sustainable food garden. Maybe I would also throw in a few designs where houses could be afloat so that floods will not affect much on daily life.

Anyway enough of my hysteria. CNY this year has been special. Both my good friends have gone to Sg to continue with work, now left only Da*n and me. Last night my brother's friend drop by so we had a good time filling up jugs of Hoe*garden at Modesto and chatting till late night.

The sketch at Kaika*n yesterday is really a fine laughable show. Sis and BIL came back with Baby Ru*i. OMG what a dear little spongy he is. :)

24-1-11

2011-01-24T05:18:00.000-08:00

Benefits of Juices

We had an awesome night during the weekends. Saturday I had a trip to sis' place, with dad and Peki. Little Ru*, again, is sooooo cute with beedy eyes and button nose and pointy mouth. Spending time with him is getting funner. Later Peki and I went to a M*klang member baby half moon (as he is only 2 weeks old). Sunday we had our fair share of bakua, mee soup and pork liver!!! Mom bought RM300 of pork liver by the way, I was stuffed with a great deal of pork.

A little update about my Masters. My brother has just found out that the "without thesis" Masters that I'm about to take will result on me not able to continue to pHD. So the only way to get there is to change it into "With Thesis", and it'll take 3 years. Is it worth to change? Or should I just stick with the Masters without thesis and get on with life?

Anyways, here's some facts about juices: (fact is I'm making juice as my meal or snack nowadays)

1. Carrots: Rich in vitamin A. Good for the eyes. Basically my everyday ingredient for juice.

2. Cabbage: It cures duodenal ulcers, helps in removing constipation and gas. It has cleaning capacity and reduces excess weight. Will have weekly intake since Chinese says its "windy" for body and inflicts joint pains.

3. Beetroot: Sorts out menstrual disorders. Too good to be true.

4. Tomato: Rich in Vit A, B and C. Contains Acids that helps metabolism and beneficial in diabetes. Also one of my basic ingredients daily.

5. Garlic: Very effective for urinary, digestive and circulatory system. The ether present in the garlic is so rich that it dissolves mucus in the sinus cavities in the bronchial tube and in the lungs. It has proved very effective in removing and eliminating parasites from intestines and has good action on high cholesterol of the body. For someone I know and sorely love perhaps.

6. Onions: Reducing blood clots. Good for the long run when we sometimes eat fatty foods.

20-1-11

2011-01-20T04:30:00.000-08:00

Beginner

Mom's birthday today and it's a holiday. So I slept all day and cocoon myself in the house. I admit I'll never grow up to be a butterfly. I enjoy being a lazy caterpillar. :D

My family had a pre-cny dinner. With the new technology power cooker, mom and dad managed to cook out hainam chicken rice which is good.

Anyways today I wanna talk about things that I on and off think about. Things I want to do, and things I should not do. Well, these are some recollections and lessons learnt from the past.

Yesterday I got into this resolution by first....be less clingy on Peki
--- go out more with friends (I know I have a few but lately I've been gaining some ^^)
--- be fit and healthy (so that life could be good if you know what I mean)
--- earn and save more
--- spend more time with my family

and less on...
...forgetfulness, last-minute episodes, over-spending, fb-ing, sulking, over-reacting/analyzing

I've been planning on quitting my fitnes* firs*. Compensating it with daily skip ropes, dinner with vegfruit juices and badminton play-outs.

18-1-11

2011-01-18T07:02:00.001-08:00

Feeling High on Juice

Nope, that wasn't a typo. I was downing some vegetable juice a moment ago and now I feel high. Lol it is quite a good after effect. Anyways, due to severe mood swings I decide to venture into my food intake to check if lack of vitamins has done any unseen damage on me. And seems like there is some part that I've overlooked.

Vitamin A - for eyes. Carrots are full of them.
Vitamin B - for converting sugar into energy, promotes good skin, red cells regrowth. (which means less chance to store fat). Whole grain cereal has it, pork and leafy veges.
Vitamin C - for immune system. Tomatoes and fruits.
Vitamin D - for muscle and nerves. Eggs and tuna.
Vitamin E - a source of antidioxidants that prevents PMS! Found it! In avocado and peanut butter.
Vitamin K - for kidneys. Green tea and cheese.

So I will start having carrots + tomatoes + lettuce + avocado + orange = ABCE/less carbo and artificial sugar per week. Although I have to take my daily dose of coffee. But better than nothing. Also there are some good juicing tips from this.